Todd Moore and Alex Gildzen

STREET OF POETS TUCSON

so I cd tell
Mark Young
I walkd Congress
to Cafe Magritte

it isn’t
anymore

so I went
down the block
to Hotel Congress
where Dillinger
was staying
when he got caught

I thot abt
Todd Moore
as I ate ahi

sorry Mark

RD Armstrong, Annie Menebroker and Todd Moore at Luna’s Cafe in Sacramento, May 21, 2009

I first corresponded with Todd Moore back in !997. I heard about him from Mark Weber, whom I had interviewed for my mag, The Lummox Journal. Initially I just wanted to interview him, not knowing who he was; but after a while I realized that I had tapped into a major powerhouse of thought and ideas. Over the years, Todd contributed essays on the style of poetry that he called “Outlaw” to the Lummox. He was also a regular contributor of poetry to the LJ. In addition to that, Todd was gracious enough to allow me to publish him in the Little Red Book Series: Bone, The Corpse is Dreaming and Bombed in New Mexico. I also published a full length book…a section from his Dillinger saga, entitled The Riddle of the Wooden Gun.

Todd was like a father to me. We often discussed the way things worked in our quirky little corner of the small press and he would often try to help me deal with some of the shit that boiled up under my feet.

I have a nasty habit of pissing people off. Sadly, I don’t do it on purpose…I’m more of an accidental irritation.

Just about a year ago, Todd, his wife Barbara and I went on a road trip together. 7 days. We covered nearly 1800 miles and had some pretty strange encounters, but we also had a lot of time to talk about life and during that time I realized how much I had grown under his tutelage. Unfortunately, I never got to express that to him, how grateful I was to have known him, because, like fathers and sons often do, we had a falling out and hadn’t spoken in months. In fact, I was going to write him and try to find out why we had the falling out this weekend. Now, I’ll never know why.

So here’s to you Todd, God bless you and keep you (try not to cuss out the lord or his angel buddies too much).

Here’s an excerpt from one of his essays:

Working the Wreckage of the American Poem

Working the wreckage of the american poem in an Illinois cornfield while listening to the wind crack through the dry cornstalks. Working the wreckage of the american poem on the Kansas prairie while trying to figure out just where my grandmother’s sodhouse stood. I’m sure she heard the faint sounds of the arriving cattle herds coming up from Texas in that vagrant and outlaw wind. Working the wreckage of the american poem while standing on the sidewalk outside the Hotel Congress in Tucson, Arizona, while trying to catch the faint sound of Dillinger’s voice in the heat and the primal wind blowing up from old Mexico.

In Los Angeles I hear some guy complaining about the Santa Anas, how they make him a little crazy. He’s been trying to find his old copy of Raymond Chandler’s short stories, the one called Red Wind. He claims reading that is the only thing that might save him, keep him from pulling a gun or a knife. He’s drunk and brushes past me in the crowd and for the fraction of a fraction of a second in the blur of street moves he almost looks and sounds like a kicking crazy version of Bukowski.

Working the wreckage of the american poem in an old bar that sits next to the railroad tracks and some guy is showing off a scar he got in a fight with box cutters. Said, the sumbitch tried for my throat and I put my hand up and went sideways. Then got him in the eye and while he’s wrestling with his eyeball which is out on his cheek, I notice that my thumb is wearing a red hat only it ain’t a red hat. It’s blood. Outside the bar a freight is rattling by and I go outside with my drink and in that rush of dust that the train clicks up I get the last three lines to a poem. It’s like they dropped right off that freight and announced their arrival.

Todd Moore was pure dynamite – in the way he wrote, the way he lived, and the abundance of raw energy that he poured into everything that he did. My last conversation with Todd was March 11th, 2010. I wished him the best on his short trip out of town and promised to phone him upon his return on Monday. I said that in his absence I would be “busy building a better bomb.” Todd’s last words to me were “BOOM.” It was a fitting response as Todd and I always referenced our projects in terms of bombs and explosions. The news of his passing hit me like an Atom bomb. It hasn’t sunk in yet. Maybe it never will. Much more than one of the literary greats, Todd was a dear friend. One small comfort is that although the author copies of DEAD RECKONING that I shipped to Todd probably remain unopened, in a strange twist of fate Todd requested the proof copy. I shipped it to him weeks ago. So, despite everything, Todd saw, held and read from the very first copy of DEAD RECKONING. It’s a small comfort, but when death creeps up and snatches our loved ones away, those small comforts are sometimes the only things that we have to pull us through. Todd left impressions on everyone who were blessed to know him. Today, tomorrow, and in the weeks that follow, remember these impressions. These small comforts will help lighten this heavy hour. —wolfgang carstens

first thing

i stabbed
my ex-wife
in her gut
& ripped
the blade
upwards
spilling
her intestines
on her shoes
like spaghetti
noodles then
i slashed
her face the
tip of her nose
went flying
into the tall
grass the fifty
bucks i spent
on the bayonet
was a real bargain
Moore said
as the electric
door on our
steel cell slammed
shut on our
dreams

John Macker and Todd Moore | Mountainair, New Mexico, Summer 2006

…Todd and I met for our last lunch together a couple of months ago in Albuquerque. He brought with him a few books he’d been reading. One was a thick book on the mythology of the contemporary frontier, another a slim volume on Mayakovsky. Another book I don’t remember, but his excitement for them, for literature in general, was sincere and infectious. Absorbing Todd’s love of books was like loving writing itself. He had a schoolboy’s crush on outlaw literature…John Macker

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