I AM RICH QUATRONE AND I
REFUSE TO END UP IN A HOSPITAL
WHERE MY LIFE WOULD END
IN OBLIVION AND THERE WILL BE THOSE
WHO SAY, OH, YES, WE LOVED HIM,
YES, WE DID
the pain is becoming unbearable
my life is a disaster by now
i’ve said it over and over
i’ve asked for help
i’ve pleaded
i’ve yelled
i’ve tried patience
but the pain is unbearable
the ringing is unbearable
i cannot sleep
death will take me like
this if i don’t do something NOW
to change this
to find what is the greatest inside
me and tap into it like a dying man
in a desert and drink from the nectar
of the gods, the milk and honey
of jehovah, the blood of jesus
of nazareth
because i’m telling you all
that i am walking the hill to
cavalry and i cannot go on like
this
i’m sorry i’ve let you all down
i’m sorry i’m not a good enough man
or a good enough lover
i’m sorry i cannot travel
not for you not for anyone
i moved to the ocean so so i would
not have to travel
i knew this was paradise when i came
here
where is there to travel when a man
moves into paradise
and has heaven at this door
where is there to go
to see what exactly
more variations of the same
i do travel
i have always traveled
but you have to have the imagination
and the greatness to see and understand
just how much rich quatrone has traveled
and does travel every single day he climbs
out of his broken bed and says
okay i will travel another day
here on this planet
i do not need to fly off anywhere
to italy to europe to anyplace
i travel in eternity every day of my life
why don’t they know this
why don’t you know this
when i allow myself to be measured
by inferior standards
i end up the way i am tonight
in excruciating soul pain
that manifests as body pain
i must break through this false reality
where there is no greatness
no imagination
there is only money the evil monster
that has swallowed this godforsaken
nation
and swallows our children and our
loves and us because we have allowed
it
but guess what
I HAVE NOT ALLOWED IT
I HAVE NOT BEEN DUPED
I HAVE NOT COMPROMISED!!!
my body is fighting the greatest
battle of my life
my body is a holy battleground
the ear
and now the shoulder
the hip
these are the signs of the greatest
battle of my life
what is weak in me is battling
what is strong in me
what is great in me is battling
what is doubtful, what believes it
is ordinary, the false belief taught
to us by so many all our lives,
that we are ordinary beings
when this is the furthest from the truth
that we are not only godly beings
we are god himself herself itself
we are everything that is great
about life
and i am everything that is great about
life
and you, they, must realize the same
about you
but while you do not
while you persist in living
like robots, like helpless creatures
going from here to there
making and spending
buying and organizing
there are those among you
like me
who need your love
and who want to love
you openly
with pure love
with the love of genius and
greatness and of god
i am not going to permit
myself to be killed like this
to die like this
i will fight you off and fight
off the weak and cowardly inside
myself and i will prevail
i will win this battle
and i will emerge again
only this time i will never
be submerged again
rich quatrone august 28 2012